Top 10 reason why NTU will not make it to the top few:
1) No quality control over professor hired in NTU, i.e. prof with no integrity(Prof that tell lies to students)
2) No quality control over student enrolled in NTU, i.e. student that dont really want to study
3) Wrong approach to education, i.e. putting "As much passing rate as possible" as top priority
4) No commitee to judge plagarism
5) Poor management,i.e. senseless construction beside lecture threatre in day time when it can be done at night/over weekend
6) Poor administration , i.e. S/U option exercise before we even take out mid term quiz
7) Reluctance to change i.e. SCE SWE course project PBSS wasnt change for a few years
8) No transparency of overall feedback to lecturer, our feedback may just be for "show"
9) Too much emphasis on final exam
10) Too little facilities, i.e. Not enough lab equipments for the students taking a lab related course like CPE 208

It has been really a long time since I post here...I decided that a lot of things should be kept personal so I write most of my stuff in my diary. I had lost the definition of friendship....my loyal reader out there please tell me even if you know very little.......

Standby is over for me now...the MO called and ask me about my condition...that means i have no reason to delay anymore..haiz...I had finished Gundam Seed over the weekend and wow it is really a good anime i really like this anime

i also watched the first 4 episode of Naruto and it really maked me wants to watch the rest haha. Yesterday i went for a wedding dinner in Pan Pacific Ballroom and i am impressed by the atmosphere. I was also taught that Etiquette is really important by a vegetable seller who used to be a chef...So my first step is to take out a prawn without using my hands.

My leg...it seems to take forever to recover...someone asked me " are you going to limp forever". This is one big issue that really bothers me, sometimes it makes me feel that i look ugly with the limping action. Now that i got my pay i am going to spend quite a lot of it today. Watches, movies, CDR, food and maybe some clothes.

It is almost 11..going for SLQ soon...

Well..they are back...with all those regulars around it is sure hard to "eat snake"..... so i dint really had a fantastic time in camp...but i have something to be happy about ahah i had passed my basic theory though it is a sheer miss haha(dint really study for it) i had began reading up on some EQ books. It is very interesting how the book introduce me to different human behaviour and their thought and many many more..
One important thing... Herbert one of my friend had been posted into 4 SAB HQ as a medic..haha dunno is it a good or a bad thing though... cause that is not a very good unit to be posted into..
I had started on Magic the gathering in Gilbert computer in the SA office... it feels good to be playing a old favourite game of mine...
Oh and 41 had began taking in BMT recruits and...we had to wake up pretty early in the morning...about 0530-0545 arghh...so early...if not i will have to queue up for soooooo long.... so far i had been procastinating to join guitar lessons.... hai...
i hope to make some progress to my life which i think has been quite a success... for those who know me well enough..i had read really a lot of books really which i think it a great achievement to me.
Again like last year we had to reel lines to clear up the line store...but this time we did it with much lesser people and with much lesser laughter with Bolun's death, those people going to Battery Line,those who are busy with work and standby , those who is on off and of course those who is enjoying themselves sleeping in the bunk.
Today is also they day i met Herbert's girlfriend. Well all I have is praise for her so far. She may not have the nicest appearance of all but i could feel that she definitely had a very nice heart and an admirable character so Herbert do treasure her.
I had a terrible dream!
I dreamt that the order for the 2 month cut for NS had been taken off!Hahah that sure is a nightmare ahahha

I had a call from my Mum at my uncle house..early in the morning...so i guess that something big must have happened...she said she is going to tell me after i had wake up...hmmm...as if really wake up..
so in the morning...she called and said that my 4th aunt which is my Mum sister had passed away during mid night.....

Well well well....after a few weeks of unreasonable struggle..and unreasonable treatment to my buddy...i think i should apologise...sorry John..
I guess however anyone has done anything wrong he does not deserve such treatment...
Not even for people who backstab me a few time and treat me with HOStility...
i had read a few chinese books about life, growing up and ageing...I think i had a better view about my life...and had thought that I should try to be nice...
Everybody else can be wrong in the whole world...i cannot be wrong...so this does not really work when I am really not feeling good...
Things went back to normal...the day without the regulars in camp was GREAT man...haha I had went to the SAFPU MO to request for a medical review...so that i can downgrade...before they come back...to give them a big surprise especially BSO haha but apparently he does not wants to downgrade me and said that I should wait till my MO come back and decide what is to be done...so..my plan failed...hai...sad..now i had to wait till 180604 for that Ang CC to come back...

Hai...i thought that standby on a weekend while most are not around would be a good idea as the possibility of having an activation will be very low...but it had happen...
at 0830 my FO was activated and that i was suppose to drive to a...hmmm...a...a...a CAMP
but which camp??How to go??haha well i had asked John before...but he don't know either....lucky my FO 2LT lawrence( i hope i spell correctly)..know which camp to know or this time i really die horribly....but there still one problem..i dun know the route...damn..this time i have to take the gamble...i read the street directory...and hope that I still know how to go...haha in the end i manage to reach the camp 5 min before the time is up for the FO and the GA to report in hahaha...that was really exciting i can see that the FO was wanting me to go over 50km/h which is the speed limit for the landrover...haha i reassure him that we will be able to make it in time...it was really very exciting...haha on our way back, we went to LOT 1 to buy some lunch and I parked my rover hiding in within the HDB estate...luckily no MP caught me...while they are away...CPT Tan the FSO called my FO handphone and i picked it up...he asked me where we are and...luckily i manage to think of a excuse...I said that 2LT Lawrence had a diarrhaea and I took them to LOT 1 haha but he ask me "wasnt that very near to camp?"..I said that I am not a very experience driver so i don't know haha finally it was over...come back to camp..rest play CS and surf net and well update my blog....the duty personnel today are really all very nice I had a great time in camp today except of the sad news of course..

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Oh well...this 2 week is quite okay BSO not around...people not around...in fact everyone is not around...haha...so i managed to watch a lot of movies haha...
I had a small talk with Hong Jun which cost me half of Mummy Return and I will say that it is worth the sacrifice that I actually got to know more about this joyful person for he can really be serious when there is a need and that the things he said actually make a lot of sense (joking here) haha.I am not surprise that he is what i found out this week. But just that i never got to know that he had such a character.And he console me that it is not my fault that the schedule for standby had been so tight for the other drivers.

Well, i happily missed my "The day after tomorrow" and "Shrek 2" and that everyone just happily never tell me that everyone else is on going..and me stupidly under took the standby(supposingly mine) so that i can miss 2 movies that i want to watch and save some money.....well i am slow enough to regret my decision later...

I had thought through the 2 weeks and a lot of thought had flashed acrossed my mind.Well they are really fast moving so I can only catch those that I would think i can accept..
Jiaqi,i am afraid that you are wrong.People isn't going to help me even if I try to be positive.In fact people would actually wants me to do standby thinking that I am "completely cured" if i actually be positive.And no matter how positive I am, it will always be my fault.Everyone is not considering my situation.They simply keep talking about how other people suffers.Oh well, i guess i would have to use somebody's word "you dont know the truth".Yes indeed they dont know how is it like to be pressurized to do standby with a swollen feet and the stress and courage to reject a standby when someone insistedly wants me to take back my standby.

Human is a wierd creature...when we exercise too much we complained and we tries to skipped them.When too little they tries to exercise more.When knowing that they are dying they will treasure their time more.They just adapt when they reach the limit which i think should not be the case..for example they should have constant exercises and they should always treasure their time.It is very funny now that i am limping(temporary) for 4 month...well on top of that i dint exercise for 3 month...i had the urge to exercise.. the urge to run especially.

I had a dream and I am very jealous of the main character in that dream...
Ok to end this I had questions for myself:
Why am I always not the main character in my dream?
Why i always dont have good ending to my dreams?

I am actually surprised that people are
reading my blog...hmmm...if anyone had read
the earlier entry I don't expect people to
read my blog...anyway...

*/Some thoughts I had over the week:
There is a difference between a true
brotherly bond and merely a friendly bond.

My brother never gets bored about my
indecisive nagging, but friends do.
My brother always gives consolation no
matter how many time I complained to him.
My brother will always walk/stand by me no
matter what happen.*/

A very interesting week indeed...

So generally i can almost go home everyday
except Monday so i had 3 night off and a
long weekend. This Wednesday i had a M.A.
and i wene to AH.The doctor said that i had
some arthritis called ankylosing spondylitis
which is caused by the gene that is in me, so
she gave me a very expensive medication that
cost almost $2 a pill and guess wat I dun
even pay a single cent haha.After the incident
last week i am seriously considering
downgrading as a option to relieve everyone.It
was a disheartening feeling that i had that
made me think of this.Also some people in
camp,SOC,IPPT and some other i could not think
of now.At the same time there are also factors
that are affecting me not to downgrade for
example, my friends in the platoon, the
reluctant to adapted to changes, the money and
many more.Still i am hestitating...cause
sometimes i just don't feel that i am in the
right place this is indeed a fresh feeling
that I never had before in my stay in 21SA.So
should i fight for downgrade?

So the war had been declared.....
This week I had 3 battles and I should suppose
I had won 2 which is a pretty good result to me.
So let see my opponents are BSO, BWO and MR BSO
(busy stupid origami).Initially I wanted to rest
till my feets fully recover before I do any
standby,like my friend Herbert says "it is time
to think about yourself".I had this selfish
thought over the week...I will not say it for
some would think that I am a "selfish bastard".
I would not think that this is a bad thought
but definitely others will not share the same
feeling...

Thursday, BSO wanted me to help out John to do
the standby while The Boogeyman is out in
Thailand. So i agreed..but this is not the end,
he later state that he wanted me to do on all the
weekend(3) which means i would not have to go
home for one month!Of course I reject his request
!He told me to come out with a schedule on John's
absence.I would not do such despicable act and
said that I cannot come out with a schedule,
then he was pissed and demanded the reason.So I
told him that i am unsure of my condition as it
can worsen as and when it like even when i am on
medication.Then becoming more pissed he threaten
me and asked me whether the MO is sure of my
condition.So we are all pissed since he did this
...I should also show no mercy..i told him that
the MO also cannot be sure..then he stupidly said
if I cannot be sure and MO cannot be sure then
who can be sure??So I conveniently said that
because I am unsure that is why I dun want to take
the risk fearing that something could happen...so
in the end he gave way and called BWO for help...

Today, I went over to Workshop to negotiate the
schedule for standby during the Crescendo period..
The BWO blatenly cheated me as i thought that they
are going to take the standby week by week.So I
suggested that we need help on 1st June to 15th
June..in the end the plan was such that even
during these difficult period John will still have
to do standby..So I told them that we need the
whole week off all the way till 6th but he only
provide his men till the 5th. He wants john to come
back on Sunday morning to do the standby which is
like directly after his SAT2.Now I am negotiating
for someone that is going to take a test that might
affect his future so i would not want to feel
guilty, if i can do something to help out the
situation.So I initiated that we need the 6th..but
he still refuse to give in..in the end Zon helped
out by volunteering to do the 6th standby(i was
looking damn pissed at that time)Zon if you are out
there reading this blog(which is probably wouldn't
happen)I appreciate that..somehow I have this
feeling that some seems like acting in front of me
during the negotiation.Also I felt like a political
tool used by BSO to save some of his face...

So there I am returning to my duty signaller desk
when Sergeant Lee request people to dismount set.I
arrowed Abel and asked him to find another 3 person
to dismount set after 20 minutes...he never came...
so I went over to SA office myself to tell Abel to
dismount set stating that I cannot call the others
as they also will complaint about such unfairness
as they had done everything the whole of last week.
So this MR BSO went over to the Signal Office,
shouted at Jinrui as if he is the boss and
commanded Jinrui to dismount the set(what does that
got to do with him?I did not call him).I stood up
and he also request that SK should also help out in
the job.I am very pissed at him for shouting at Jin
Rui in the office and commanded SK to come down.He
merely gave simple reasons that THEY had done a lot
already and that sergeant Tham was their withness.
So what could I say?I could not think of other
things other than to give in.But after he left I
had the thought of complaining to BSO that I am
mistreated in the platoon by MR BSO that he put me
as Duty Signaller twice on night off day for 3month.
And that what right has he to complaint giving the
fact that he had not burn a weekend and that even I
on status also burn 1000000% more weekend than him.
He, I would say is a selfish bastard that pushes all
the Saikang to his friend while he enjoy his weekend
and that he only done a few job that was out of
office hour had complained so much.So what about
those on standby?So people in signal platoon men or
specialist if you know who I am refering to it is
up to you to believe.I would say that only people
that are stupid enough to tag around and in the end
get stab(luckily I was never those people).Now that
things had turn ugly, I should not try to hide the
fact that it was him that had gotten me the schedule
to do both New Year and Chinese New Year standby
initially when I still regard him as my friend.
Way before that he just happily seed my name on the
Vesak Day guard duty list and ignore it when it was
his turn to do the duty.He just bluff his way
through...at first I said I would forgive him
thinking that he is not doing it on purpose..but
after what had happen I would not think so saintly
of him and that his apology is just another scam to
appease the people around him and to make more
available victim.To think that I really thought he
was sincere about being sorry.
People around him had to be caution of what might
happen for you might be the next victim(hint:i am not
the first).


Ok so much for that inconsiderate asshole...

I remembered that Ritchie was very pissed at
someone who did not inform him of what he is
to do when he gets back to camp after a
long break.It happened to me when I return
from Att C and hospitalisation. No one told
me of the changes going on in the platoon
and that no one actually had the thought of
telling me what i should do the first day i
came back to camp for example drawing arms
and cleaning them for inspection which to me
is very important for I could end up losing
a weekend!For a moment I felt I am not part
of the platoon anymore..

I remembered that i walked the slowest in
Chinatown keeping that aside, my feet is
still swollen...no correct medicine was
given so far...this 2 week was a really
eventful one...there is sorrow(mostly) as
well as happiness...

Today i must really thank Vicknesh and
Wilson.BSM came to the office demanded
that my bunk that contain only 4 person to
be disperse...and that really shocked me and
JinRui who was also in the office.We really
wanted to stay in the bunk and to me it had
almost all the happiness i had in my entire
NS life and i really treasure it.Life together
that bunk was a mess bunk and that when Bolun
was still around..i could almost feel that
atmosphere whenever i book in..although time
had passed and most went over to battery line
while Bolun was spiritually with us now.I was
very reluctant and felt really helpless cause
could do nothing about it except that i just
hope that our bunk mate could stay together
despite the politics we had in the platoon...
Then came Vicknesh and Wilson.Wilson was acting
under the order of the BSM while Vicknesh was
(ar!my hearts hurts)the duty signaller
(wa kaozz bursting).Vicknesh was the first one
to notice that there is actually another bunk
with only 2 person in it(the one opp. to our
bunk). And with that Wilson volunteered to tell
staff and BSM about it risking the danger of
being scolded by both of them. In the end they
dint scold him(or maybe i was a bit too paranoid).
I am really thankful to them both!But however we
tried our best to retain our bunk, the final
decision still fall on the (fat bastard)BSM..

Last week on the Alpha standby was done by John
and this week by ZhenHao aka The Boogey man. This
is due to the inability of me to do the standby
due to the medicine i took and the vital parts
affected needed for driving...They both
complained to me that they could not take the
pressure anymore..but still what could I do..I
don't know what to do or rather what I can do to
help them. Already i tried my best to do some even
with my swollen feet so that they could have some
incentives that i might not even have in my NS life.
Sad as I always was since New Year(i believe they
feel the same too),I went to BSO for help as
instructed by John.Today he mentioned to me that
there is a sub for me..(lets hope it is not John).
The Boogey Man asked me how am I going to return
the favour and said that each exercise should be
considered as 3 standby.I felt lost of word and
pissed at the same time.I mean how am i suppose to
answer when i dont even know how fatal my illness
is? Although the doctor did not says that i had a
very serious illness i was prepared to accept any
undesiredoutcome. I might not even had the chance
to return all the favour especially to John.

I watched Troy and Van Helsing this week, both are
great movies and definitely worth the money though
i watch Troy feeling less pissed than when i watched
Van Helsing.

Promises that are made should be acknowledge and
i am especially pissed off when people break their
promise to me after making another promise to
another person. It is because promise make me hope
and look forward to something and that it is broken
for a wrong reason.Van Helsing was almost a
nightmare for me, but luckily i managed to throw
away any unhappiness that could had cost me $6.50
and enjoyed the movie.

Many a time someone "jio" me to do something which I
know nothing about. I would of course ask a lot of
question when I don't know what is going on and
obviously that person that asked me out should be
the one answering the questions. Well simply if
anyone is not prepared to be questioned, then he/she
should not ask friends to do thing that friends
totally do not know what is going on. It is
especially irritating for me when someone asked me to
do something together and when question of what is
going on, he/she replied me with a irritated tone
which suggest that I should know what is going on
which i do not.If not prepared to be questioned why
should you asked people to do thing that they totally
don't know or had not done before? Of course they
will ask question!If not prepared to answer you might
as well don't ask them to do that thing!For example,
someone asked me to a well known restaurant to enjoy
the red wine which i totally do not know how to
appreciate and I asked a few question and as if being
interrupted answered with a pissed tone.And who is
the expert here?If not prepared to answer question
posted then how am i going to appreciate what i am
doing now?I might as well don't go for this outing as
i will not know what is going on!

The same theory goes..Going out together as promised,
we should keep each accompany and that we should be
walking as a group.
I could not bear the feeling of being left
behind after being asked to go out together. Obvious
to everyone in the unit and even the cook house food
caterer that I had difficulty walking even with pain
killer as i am walking and standing almost on one leg
It is very clear cut that i will be walking slower
and will be tired out very quickly even with the
training for 3+ month. Pain was especially great at
night due to the lousy painkiller i take during
morning and afternoon. That day i was almost going
out with the thoughtful YanMing instead as i was
being left behind. There i am sweating profusiouly
and struggling to catch up with them while YanMing
Chatted with me keeping each other accompany. When we
came back, we bought some stuff back and i walked in
front about 10-15m ahead so that i will not be left
too way back.But not long after they catch with me
and again they throw me behind before we reach road to
the camp gate(this is a proof that they are really
going very fast). We entering camp together. I was
Half way there when they were almost there(we were
>50m away from each other)...sawing a familiar face
looking back, i thought that they might just wait for
me...they continued...again i struggled back and i
was sweating a lot more than usual comparable to the
day i rush to camp thinking i am going to awol...
Another morning i experience similar situation that
that i was really PISSED off and angry for my leg was
terribly painful though it is my fault.Even friends
came upon to help me when I am limping in a ugly
manner.

Angry as i am i try not to let it affect whatever
decision that i am going to make in the near future.

Sometimes as my feet continues to swell, as i
continued to limp, as people in the unit keep looking
at me with a strange body percing eye sight, i could
felt what they are thinking and makes me wonders
whether the people feel the same way that i am "chao
geng". Though i constantly reminded myself that
knowing that i was not trying to fake was a more than
sufficient reason to convince myself not to bother
about what and how people feels, it is very hard to
live in such a environment.So now i am really not
resisting the idea of downgrading if there is really
a need.

Lastly i went to Holland Village together with
KhengHui and Ritchie after booking out. We went to
eat at Subway which i totally do not know of.And i
was amused the whole night by the expression of the
staff there.When asked whether what sauce i wanted to
add to my bread, I was at a lost as i dont know
whether need to pay extra money..So desperately i
answer "no thanks". The ger was aghast by what i said
and recommended me a sauce.Then i realised that it is
part of the meal...We then went on to eat supper and
as we search I got more and more full...in the end
only Khenghui ordered a prata..I was a bit remorseful
this incident..i shall not elaborate but sorry
KhengHui..really sorry hope you can accept my apology
haizz...

Today, i wake up thinking that my right leg
is gone....damn....
I was aching all over my body that I refuse
to wake up...the lower part of my knee is
so painful that i tot my menicus had
dissappeared....my whole feet was really
"Black" under the poor lighting in my house
Then, i ate some painkiller...single dose.....
The past few days the gastric is so bad that
i cannot continue with the other dose of pain-
killer...so no choice i had to make use with
only one dose....
I wake up everyday with fear that i might not
live the next....I am scared...never so scared
before...everyday i wake up i fear i cannot
walk....
I sleep every night having in mind that the
next day my leg will be more painful
Now i have one more thing to fear.....
Today, i also went out with Kheng Hui , john
and Ritchie. We went around ChinaTown and
eat all the delicacy and eat all we can haha..
It was one of the few times that i went to
ChinaTown and that going with friends and
family is really a different experience...but still
i walked the slowest there...making me a burden
to them...

Yeah!Finally got to get off and together with
john, ritchie, jinrui and khenghui!Staying at
home all day...i just sit there almost doing
nothing and waiting for miricle to happen...
I messaged john all day...nothing to do...
and chatted with Ritchie all day.................
When i woke up this morning, i feel as if my
whole body is aching...must be bad posture
Then at night, i meet Ritchie and went walk
walk in Orchard...and i realised tat i am
really a mountain turtle....we tried looking
for the stupid unbreakable water bottle...
but we found 1 tat is in a bad shape...so
in the end i dint buy...haizz.....and also john
meet up with me in orchard 2 times haha
coz he is with Fabian(dunno who haha)
Anyway..we went to eat brownies and the
waiter sure took a long time to return our
change....then of course we went home....
On my way home....i limp...and limp...and limp
and found tat as my right leg land, my ankle
and knee hurts...when my left leg land...
my hip hurts....so i force my way home.....
even the black cat that is suppose to be beri
unlucky became my sandbag...i will fight to the
end till i recover!!

Boring ......good friday standby haizz doing a
favour for John hmm...i got into trouble...sianz
there is 2 rover tat i lend to the BC...one of
them is spoiled...dunno whether is it mine but
i remember the engine oil is not low leh...sianz
i told them that i got check the vehicle in the
morning..which i did not haiz....should i lie/?
Have i lied too much??I dunno what to do now..
If the BC had check the rover b4 he moved off
and that the rover is mine..then i die liaozz haha
but i got a consolation is that i remember that i
drove Eugene vehicle and that his wiper is not
working...hmmm....so got some chance that the
vehicle is not mine..but still i dint check my rover
dunno whether is it mine a not haiz...
Life is so contradicting...i lied in order not to get
myself into trouble...now...i think i might have
gotten myself into trouble..sianzz...ar...
I found that i am getting more and more heck
care about things...is it a good thing or bad??
It is that normally this thing happen i will get
very worried and keep bothering me the whole
day but this time not so much...
i keep telling myself that thinking so much wont
solve the problem......am i trying to make myself
more comfortable or am i pushing back the
problem??haizz....john i am not blaming u...just
that i wanted to confirm that it is not my rover
and that i wanted to think of a better way to
defend myself if they asked.....sorry if i sounded
that i blame u..i am always like that...when there
is trouble...the typical me is that blame on others
i think a lot might have seen this sort of things
happening...but it is only after i calm down that
i know that some times i am at fault...
i would not say that most of the time that i am not
sure whether most of the time i am at fault or others
are at fault...ar...sianz....almost nine gotto return key
to serg andrew....

ar....gout or whatever shit for 2 month +....ah....
ife sucks..when will it ever be cured??whenever
it seems like recovering...it got swollen again...
time and time and again my spirit..my will to
carry on...my will to fight got weaker and
weaker....John, thanks for helping out with my
standby.Ritchie, thanks for all the emotional
support...if not i would have broken down...a lot
of things about my feet i dint reallysay...it will be
a secret...til i tell someone...haiz....how am i
going to end this?it is said in my divination tat i
prayed for in a temple:
Just like a sparrow trying to build its nest with mud
with the rain and wind, it never succeed,
finally the uncompleted nest was blown and washed
away by the rain and wind

it says tat no matter what i do i will be doing in vain
for my feet..haizzz....still i struggle with my feet....
with Mr Boogey putting salt in my wound...i feel so
sad tat day..and angry of course...Sometimes i feel
so sad for John...having suffered because of me....
if i dont have standby....haizzz i wouldn't have to
worry so much...worry about who is going to take
over me in standby..worry about wat if it come back
again..worry about whether will i downgrade...
whether i can return john the standby...i feel that i
had brought everyone down...if only i am not in
their life they could be happier..but how can i do it?
How can that happen??...everything changed from
28th Nov 2003........
sometimes i wonder what will happen if Bolun were
still around i can be sure that life in camp would not
turn out this way...ar......life sucks...!?!...How can i
be happy??i have never been happy since New Year
2004...Am i still a human??How can that be??How
can a person so young be so unhappy??People at my
age should be happy and enjoying life with all the
food and friends around...Y ME!!!AR!!Life is so crappy
...arghh....even the doc i visited said that he dont
have confident of curing me.How can a person be so
suay?How can the same person applying for a busary
and i cant get it when i had a better result?How can
the same person applying for jc with the same score
and yet i dun get in??How can i lost my specs in
Thailand when all the others dont?I am just so suay...

wau lau...after the bloody removal of the
stupid wisdom teeth more problem came...
The whole of my right feet is swollen for
no apparent reason and i could barely walk
then the stupid MO only give me 3 days ex
lower limb...sianzz...my leg was so swollen
yesterday that Jiahui had to carry me to
bunk...Thanks for the lift Jiahui appreciate
that..then that night i was in pain...i took
John pillow before falling asleep.. then he
slept without pillow yesterday..,, i am so
sorry John and sorry again for causing u to
do duty till so late yesterday...
and thanks for accompany me to all the places
while my feet is in this bad shape...canteen,
gate, signal office, duty sig and many other
.....why am i getting all these things when
everybody else is enjoying the absent of BSO
and Staff seah and HQ BSM and especially RSM
?? haI~~~:~(..sianzzz...
I will be going to A&E later to see the what
is exactly happening to my leg...hope to get
an answer...but i really dun want to
downgrade i dun wanna leave this place...and
i will also miss the $100 dollar that i will
be getting from SAF for sleeping in bunk...
ouch! it starts to hurts again...hai~~~....

My effort in finding my memory in primary
school finally pay off!! So happy today i
found that actually Situ Yi is the same
class as me in pri5 hehe then got tick
off by him for not remembering him..hai..
He also send me a picture of my pri5 photo
wow that is the greatest part! I finally
got a pri sch class photo with me i must
go print it out hehe then i was also
found by Marilyn who happen to be in my pri
6 classmate! haha that is great and manage
to talk to her the whole of the afternoon
yesterday to catch up on what is lost these
few years through MSN. Thanks again to Situ
who gave me that photo heehe for if he had
not got the anniversary book thing i would
never had a picture of myself in those time
This search is really fun, we must really
go out to have a meal after Marilyn come
back in MAY then we can have a gathering
Now that i think of it, it is really sad
that i lost so much memory during the great
primary sch days....notice that i put my
friendster photo as a younger version of me
this is to let those that lost me or whom i
lost in primary school to find me back again
haha heng ar....Marilyn saw that picture and
remembered me thanks Marilyn! There is still
one person..that i wanted to find...but i
think he does not want to see me...nvm...
things will get better this search is a
meaningful one!